As an outsider to this kind of lifestyle, I really didn’t know what I was getting myself into by joining this group. I’ve been single for 15 years, with my only sexual experiences being the “friends with benefits” type situations.
I’ve never been with couples before, but always thought about it, and when I came across Brenda’s post on Craigslist I figured I wasn’t getting any younger and should at least try it. The fact that the group was formed for mature BBWs and their admirers was even better. I wouldn’t have to feel as self-conscious about my body, although that will always be a concern for me.
When I joined the group, I didn’t know what to expect. I didn’t know how I would be received. I didn’t know what to think of the people that “were into this type of thing”. I took a leap of faith when I RSVP’d for my first party. To be honest, I contemplated not going. But I knew if I didn’t go, I would never go. Even when I pulled into the parking lot, I thought about turning around and going home. I literally sat in the car for 10 minutes, but held my breath and walked to the door. Once I knocked on the door later, there was no turning back.
Five people were already there, all smiles, with what I assume was eagerness to meet the new people that were planning to attend. Everyone that entered had the same aura about them. Although I was nervous to attend (more like terrified), everyone was so nice that it was impossible for me to be anything other than comfortable by the time I left.
I want to thank Brenda for welcoming me into this group and allowing me to attend the party. I’m glad I got to meet so many people, and although I didn’t partake in any activities last night, I can almost guarantee that won’t be the case next time. I look forward to the next one.